A MESSY HEART AND HEAVY SHOULDERS

5:03:00 AM Gadislensa 0 Comments

Peace be upon to you,  Alhamdulillah it's the month of Ramadhan again.
This is what I have been waiting for.

All praised be to Allah for this journey.
Remember don't wait for the perfect moment. Take the moment and make it perfect.
It's been too long that I didn't update any post on my blog. So I just want to take this chance to update a post at least.

Before that, I would like to say Thank You for those who were there to support me, sending prayers, lending a hug, wipe out my tears, stand by besides me and trying to create a smile back on my face. May Allah repay back your kindness.

Through out last semester till this short semester, I down for a frequent times. But sometimes I told to myself  "it's okay to cry". Life has knocked me down a few times, it showed me things I never wanted to see. I experienced sadness and failures. But one thing for sure I always need to get up.

I cried a lot on last semester and also on past few days. Like the most horrible and so ugly kind of crying that you would never imagined of, not just like tears. But it was a really hard sobbing. I guess the last time when i was crying so bad is when I have a sharing session with my favorite person at the lake.
Because I let it all out and thank you to that person for lending me your ears and calming me out.

"Why in the world you need to cry? You shouldn't have to cry, you have everything! Your life is perfect."- unknown

 I cried because of work, and with everything else.
At the end of the day I am still a normal human like you guys who have heart and feeling, and I am not a robot.
Sometimes Allah allows us to fall because there's something down there we're supposed to find.

I am telling you this not for seeking an attention, but I don't want any of you to think that I already have everything. No..
I am trying to be a positive person, I try to see the good in every situation that happens in my life, I try to see the good in people, I work hard, I will always make sure people around me happy and I will always prioritizes all the person that I love first than me. I enjoy the things I do and I also love my life.
But that doesn't mean that I don't have any problems or my life is perfect.

Sometimes I do get Direct Message from a really kind person out there and also from people around me. That they see me as an inspiration and they also want to live that kind of life that I live.
I am not saying that it is not good, what is good can be used as a guide, and what is not good can be used as a lesson.

I took this chance to share about what I've learnt through out all this phase.
Which is what I wanted to shared it to you. On past few days, I cried. I had a really really bad day and a tough time.

Never underestimate the pain of each person, because in all honesty Everyone is struggling. Just some people are better at hiding it than others. Everyone has problems no matter how perfect that person are. or how good or kind or calm or inspiring person. He or she has his or her own flaws. We never know what people are going through. So pause before you start judging, mocking or criticizing others. Everyone is fighting their own unique war!

Wallahi, to be honest the good you see in me. It is just really that Allah is the one who hiding all of my terrible flaws.

so after this, if you're willing to continue join this journey with me, I hope you know that I'm just like you. That I cry too, I get scared too, I have my own insecurity too, I make mistakes too, I get angry, I get impatient, And I do silly things, and there is a time I messed it all up too. I hope you don't even think that I have everything all together because i really don't.
And I am not perfect.

Perfection only happens in Paradise. Only Allah is perfect, nobody is perfect in this world Nobody has the ability to make things perfect but we are given chances to make things right. We all are so full of flaws, but yet Allah is always forgive us. Allah still protect us, Allah still love us for no matter what we did.

Remember, when sadness fill your heart and tears flow in your eyes.
Always remember 3 things;

ALLAH is with you, still with you and always with you.



Ramadhan doesn't come just to change our schedule. It comes to change our hearts too..
I feel  more relieved after write this up.
This is also a reminder foremost to myself.
Will let you read it again at the next post.
Inshaallah, Happy Iftar!

Sincerely;
FS